Thursday, February 5, 2015


Wow.. I have not blogged in forever but have decided to blog more on here to keep people updated on our family, our journey with Titus, and whatever else. :)

Early in 2014 one of Titus's therapist asked if we were interested in ordering him a wheelchair.  I automatically told her we didn't need it and that he was fine in his stroller.  I didn't want a wheelchair.  I think I was trying to convince myself he may never need one.  In October 2014 she mentioned it again.  This time I realized that if we ordered it, it would be 100% covered by insurance since we had met our deductible and out of pocket expenses.  So, we ordered the wheelchair along with a stander for our house.  The stander helps his bear weight in his legs..  In my mind, we would order the wheelchair and not really use it yet.  We would have it but we wouldnt use it till absolutely necessary..  

At the beginning of December 2014 T's wheelchair came.  Bright orange of course, because he couldn't have any other color besides a Miami Dolphin color. (Oh and by the way, It now has Dolphin stickers as well)  When the guy delivered it, we had to put T in and out of it so that it would be fitted perfectly for him.  When I put him in it the first time, his whole demeanor changed.  He started smiling, cooing, and looking around like crazy.  I took him out to make adjustments, put him back in and the same thing happened.  When the technician left, I put him in it to sit in for a while.  HE LOVED IT! He was up higher, could see everyone, and loved watching his sisters run around him.

That night when Shane came home, he wanted T to take his new wheels for a spin.  We were in awe at dinner.  He was "talking" to us, smiling at people as they walked by, and loved being up at the table with us.  Before in his stroller he would be sitting looking under the table, but not anymore. He is able to be a part of what is going on around him.  Raygen and Harper love to push him around.  We recently went to eat lunch with Raygen at school and as soon as she saw us, she ran over to push Titus to where we were sitting. She was telling her friends all about how her brother just got a new wheelchair! Pure sweetness!

The Lord has used this wheelchair to do big things in me.  The wheelchair was something I feared.  It was a world of unknown that I wasn't quite prepared to jump into.  I had so many questions. How would we get around with it? How heavy was it? Would it fit in my van?  More than anything though, I think I knew it would bring a very obvious visual to those who saw us that Titus for sure had special needs.  When he sat in his stroller, no one would really be able to tell he had some unique qualities.  But this, this was a big flashing red sign that our little guy was "different".  So once again, my fear was holding something back that was an amazing gift. Once, I saw how happy he was in it, I didn't care one single bit. I will drag that ridiculously heavy thing anywhere we go to see him light up the way he does.  The Lord started chipping away once again at some pride in my life.  Who cares that we have a big flashing red sign  blinking special needs? I am learning to embrace that sign and in so many ways learning to love it!  

This chair that started of as a fear has turned into a huge PRAISE! Those of you who don't know, Titus's name in Uganda was Praise. It is now his middle name.  He is now our Praise on wheels.  I have been amazed to see how this wheelchair has opened doors for us to share the Lord's goodness.  The other day we ran into a lady at the grocery store whose grandson was about to get his first wheelchair. He was almost 2.  We talked for a while and I got to share with her about how I was scared of it at first but now what a huge blessing it is.  I know this was a God ordained moment to remind me that He used all things together for good and His glory.

There are moments that I wish things could be a little easier. Moments that I wish it didn't take so long to get in and out of places. Moments that I plead with the Lord for my son's seizures to go away for good. Moments that I don't understand why he is only 2 yet has gone through and suffered more than most people I know.  Then the Lord reminds me this life is not about me.  This life is not about Titus.  This life and everything else is about Jesus.  So, I pray that He uses our circumstances, our weaknesses, our joy-filled moments, T's suffering, wheelchairs, our family, our daughters, and every other aspect of our life for His glory!!

So now when I look at that wheelchair, I no longer see fear, I see my sweet #tpraiseonwheels!!!  What a blessing I never saw rolling my way!! :)

Oh and I thought you might enjoy some of this cuteness!

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Feeling the Love!

We have had several big things happen since the last time I blogged.
First of all, we did a fundraiser on an adoption blog to raise money to get Titus home. We were overwhelmed by the love and support we got. We didn't even know a lot of the people who gave which was amazing. We had friends from high school, our faith family, a family of a little girl that was in my 2nd grade class last year, and friends who gave. I can't believe the love so many people have for our baby boy already. Most of these people will never meet Titus, and that is ok. They have played an amazing role in getting him home. Many people will say, "Why would you spend so much money to get a baby? We just so not understand why it cost so much. If you cant afford to do this yourself then you just shouldn't do it." We are doing this because God is so good. He was so good to look down at us and say "I will not leave you as orphans, I will come to you." John 14:18. We want to say that to our little boy. God has adopted us into His kingdom and showed us so much grace. Adoption is such an amazing picture of the gospel. It shows God the Father's love towards us. I get tears in my eyes even thinking about it. Adoption has become such a big part of us. I know some will not understand it, and that is totally ok. I just want to say THANK YOU to all of you who gave to bring our son home. There are no words to really describe how much it means to us. You are a blessing. Thank you for giving sacrificially to save a life of a sweet little 3 month old baby in Uganda, Africa who is ready to be with his family!!!  If you haven't had a chance to check out the video you can go to  You can continue to donate as long as we are on the website....  We are so thankful for this video and to have it to show to Baby P one day so he can see how loved he was before we ever met him.
The 2nd amazing thing of this weekend was our amazing C3 faith family threw the most thoughtful baby shower for our sweet boy. I am so thankful for how much he is loved already. I really do not know what we would do with out these amazing people. Serving them and with them is a complete joy. I look around so many times on Sunday and will think, "How did this happen? How did we get to be a part of this?" Only by God's grace are we able to be a part of such amazing people. They truly are some of the most humble, giving, missional, sweet, fun, silly and loving people I have ever been around. C3 is such a gift to us. I will be MORE than happy to bring our baby boy home to this amazing group of people. I am so thankful all of our sweet kiddos will grow up with such an amazing faith family. Again, I cant even put into words what they are to us. They are FAMILY, which is what the church is supposed to be. I love the people of C3. I love just doing life with them. :)
We also started working on Baby P's room.  It is not ready yet but almost there.. Here are a few pics...  My sweet Meemaw made the curtains.. Isn't she talented?  My Momma helped me paint the room and hang the curtains. I am not sure what I would do without them :)

SUPER EXCITING NEWS: I want to share that as of this morning our paperwork is in Uganda. This is huge... Our lawyer has it and will be filing it soon! Wahoo. This news did this momma's heart so so happy! We are hoping that because of his medical condition, we will get a court date soon. We are not sure what soon is, but soon :) Every step is such a huge victory when it comes to the adoption. It is a lot of hurry up and then wait. But God has been so so faithful. This process has been so good for me. It hasn't been easy but it has been so good! God has taught me so much about His sovereignty and His complete control over things. I am amazed at how He has laid everything out. I know there is more waiting and bumps in the road ahead of us but knowing that God is in control of it all gives me such peace.  Please be praying that God gives us favor as the court receives our paper work and looks to schedule a court date.
So, needless to say it has been a great few days! Feeling grateful, loved, undeserving, and and just plain thankful.

Sunday, February 3, 2013

It has been a while.....

I have not been the best at keeping up with this. I planned on starting this when we started our adoption process but obviously I have not done a very good job of that. :)  A lot has happened since the last time I blogged.....

Our sweet girls are getting so big... Raygen is heading on almost 7 and Harper is 18 months.  I cannot believe it.  How did this happen?  I feel more than honored to be their momma.  Raygen has the sweetest and most tender heart.  This last summer while Shane was speaking at a youth camp,  God rescued our sweet girl.  It has been amazing to see what the Lord has done with her since then.  Harper is our crazy and unique child.  She is full of personality and always lets you know she is in the room.  She always has a smile on her face. (even if she is screaming):)

I couldn't be more thankful for my sweet husband.  He loves me so well.  He is an amazing dad and an awesome leader for our family. I feel more than honored to go through this life with him. 
We have been matched with our sweet boy!!!  I cant believe it.  We were thinking it would be the end of this year before we heard anything but through some very unexpected circumstances God had different plans.  I laugh at myself now thinking about how I had it all figured out.  We felt like we would have a 18 month or older little boy, who was healthy, come to be a part of our family.  We were really thinking about 2 years old or so.  I am sure the Lord was looking down and smiling at me as I was making all these "plans".  About 3 weeks ago we were contacted about a little boy in Uganda who has some health issues and they needed a family who would be willing to bring him home to have some follow up treatments/surgeries.  Through, lots of prayer and conversations we realized this was the little boy God has called to be our son.  He is 2 months old.  My mind never imagined having such a young baby.  God knows so much better than we do.  I look back at all my little plans and now I couldn't be more THANKFUL they didn't go the way I imagined. I will call him baby P on here till we get him home. :)  I love him already. We have prayed for him before we ever knew about him.  Now, we know who our son is.  What a gift..  Many people don't understand adoption.  It cost to much, it takes to long, how can you love someone elses baby, etc, are many comments made.  Our heart for adoption comes from God himself.  He adopted us into his Kingdom.  We were orphans and He rescued us as a loving Father.  "I will not leave you as orphans, I will come to you."John 14:18.  Wow, I couldn't be more thankful He didn't leave us as orphans.  Through that love, we cant help but feel that towards the orphans here on earth.  We long to show our sweet son the same love, the Lord showed us.
Basically, I love all 3 of our sweet kiddos.  Ray Ray, Harper Bug, and baby P I am beyond blessed to be your momma...
I cant wait to have all 3 of our littles together.  So thankful the Lord is always good and knows so much better than we do. :)

Monday, May 21, 2012

Busy Busy Weekend!!!

Wow, what a weekend...  This was probably one of the busiest we have had in a while!  Friday was a fun, relaxing night.  We went over to D and Erica's to have a family night.  We also had Brycee with us, which was an added bonus.  It was such fun having a little boy to join in.  When he is with us, I think of how one day we will have our little boy home from Uganda.  It does my heart so good  to imagine our lives with a little boy about 2 and a half.
Then Saturday rolled around...  Raygen's Bday party.  She couldn't have been more excited.  I made funfetti cupcakes (her favorite) and got a few Hello Kitty decorations.  We had her party at a park in Rowlett this year.  It ended up being perfect.  Sunny, a little breezy, and lots of shade.  There were a lot of friends, family, and kiddos there.  I love all the people in our life. I feel overwhelmed with the love they showered on our daughter.  Raygen got a lot of very girly things.  I love how girly she is.  It is a perfect picture of the Lord truly knitting her together.  Raygen did not fall in love with makeup, dance, and all things girly from me.  I love this though. I love resting in the peace that God has my sweet girl in his hands.  He has created her and made her just the way He has planned.   She is such a sweet, outgoing, hilarious, beautiful, amazing, thoughtful, girly, silly, little girl.  The list can truly go on.  She is such a gift.  We couldn't be more proud of her!!!
Then came Sunday!!!  Shane preached this week.  We now have 3 services so any time he preaches it is an exhausting day.  Just a side note, I love our faith family.  I love being so excited to be with them. I love how much they love the gospel and love on others. I love how it is not about us but only about Jesus! I love serving them, doing life with them, and fellowshiping with them.  They are an amazing group of people and I just feel blessed that we get to be a part of it.
So, after Shane got home from preaching, we ate lunch together, and then he was off to his dance recital.  Yes, Shane had a dance recital. :)  Raygen takes hip hop at a dance academy in Rowlett.  Well, her teacher asked Shane if he would be interested in doing a Daddy dance.  His first excuse was that we had CG on the night they practiced.  She told him he could come late and shot that down.  He then agreed thinking he would be dancing with Raygen.  We later found out that when she said Daddy dance she meant Daddy dance.  It is a group of dads that got together and put on a dance at the spring recital.  Her academy breaks the recitals down into 2 sections.  The first one started at 3pm and the 2nd one started at 6pm.  Raygen's was at 6.  Poor Shane had to perform in both though.  When we got to Raygen's recital, Shane was outside with all the other dads. He just started smiling when he saw us.  He is such a good sport.  Raygen did amazing in her recital, even though it was REALLY long.  When she was done, it was daddy's turn.  Out Shane came in his bright neon pink and green stripped, duct tape jacket I made him, :)  It was for sure bright. I put a big P outlined with glitter on the back.  It looked amazing!!  He had to dance to "Moves like Jagger", "I'm sexy and I know it," and "Wobble Wobble."  Needless to say I could not stop laughing.  Shane is one amazing man.  I couldn't be more proud to be his wife.  He goes out of his way to let his girls know how much he loves them.  Raygen is still talking about how much she loved watching her daddy dance. Last night, she told me, "I am so lucky to have my daddy, not many daddies would do that."  She couldn't be more lucky.  She is blessed more than she could ever know to have her daddy.  He continues to show them the gospel with the way he loves on them.  I fall more in love with him, the more I watch him with our girls.  I am excited for our son to come home, so he can see how to treat his future children.  Our girls will know how to be treated by the example their daddy sets for them.  I LOVE the way he loves them.  He is a special man and I couldn't be more thankful the Lord chose me to be his wife.
Needless to say we were all exhausted last night.  I have to say, I love our crazy life!!!  I wouldn't want to spend my life being mommy to anyone else or being a wife to anyone else!!!  Truly blessed mommy and wifey! :)

Monday, April 2, 2012

Starting Something new...

Wow.  Blogging.  This is something I never thought I would do..  I love reading other people's blogs but never thought I would start one of my own.  This blog will be about our family and the roads God is taking us on. The reason our blog is called PSALMthirtyfour3 is because this is our family verse.  It says "Magnify the Lord with me, and let us exalt His name together."  That is the goal of our family.  To lift Jesus high and keep ourselves low.  I am married to a Godly man name Shane.  He is seriously the most hilarious person I have ever met.  He has taught me how to not take myself too seriously and to always laugh at myself.  He leads our family so well.  He loves Jesus first and then knows how to love us.  I adore that man and couldn't be more thankful to be his bride.  We have 2 daughters.  Our oldest daughter is Raygen. She will be 6 on May 15th.  She has such a sweet spirit and is all girl.  She loves to help people, talk, paint finger nails, laugh, dance, and love on her little sister.  She is really creative and I can't wait to see what kind of doors the Lord will open for her.  Our youngest daughter is Harper.  Harper will be 9 months old this coming Sunday.  She is a pistol.  She loves to smile.  She smiles more than any baby I have ever seen.  She is crawling and into everything.  She already has such a loving personality.  She is saying dada and mama. :)  She loves her big sister so much.  My husband is a pastor at our church (C3 Rowlett) so we also love our faith family.  We love to serve them and do life with them.

These are my precious girls :)

I will post shortly about the new adventure the Lord is taking us on and the calling He has placed on our family.. :)